i will never understand you, part 63

"your life seems to be going well, i don't want to ruin it."
"you don't care."

AIM

the entire conversation, i had this on my clipboard

"you're a lot more educated than i am, but i enjoy listening to you talk about this because i feel like i am learning."

waiting for the perfect time to use it. there it was. shit there's another chance. waiting for the perfect moment...

"is something wrong?"

no, i'm fine

SO GAY SO GAY SO GAY SO GAY SO GAY SO GAY SO GAY SO GAY SO GAY SO GAY SO GAY SO GAY SO GAY SO GAY SO GAY SO GAY SO GAY SO GAY SO GAY SO GAY SO GAY SO GAY SO GAY SO GAY SO GAY SO GAY SO GAY SO GAY SO GAY SO GAY SO GAY SO GAY SO GAY SO GAY SO GAY SO GAY SO GAY SO GAY SO GAY SO GAY SO GAY SO GAY SO GAY SO GAY SO GAY SO GAY SO GAY SO GAY SO GAY SO GAY SO GAY SO GAY SO GAY SO GAY.

enthusiasm

i've noticed that as i read facebook statuses and tweets and look at my friend's pictures, that i am absolutely disgusted by enthusiasm. the stronger their enthusiasm, the more disgusted i am.

wearing team colors with their mascot painted on your face? smiling at a wedding? giving a thumbs-up in front of a national landmark? i hate you probably.

all caps? exclamation points? a "WooHoo!!" at the end of your tweet? having an anniversary with "the boy?" oh my god, it's almost your 21st birthday? i hate you too, probably.

that's why i am never enthusiastic about anything anymore. (disneyland excluded.)

"annie, i love you."

"but you don't know me that well, it's been two years."
"how have you changed?"
"..."

now

i want to run away from home.

weekend

friday:
got drunk
went to a haunted house

saturday:
took kaufman to the vet
saw toy story 1 & 2 in 3D
thought about taking kaufman to the vet again
ordered pizza

sunday:
paid bills
it snowed
online shopping
bought kaufman a cone
shower & sleep